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Three Sides of Me
The one who caters to all that he loves,
Protector of the ones he's most loyal too,
Any desire you have I supply it.
But as I look at you,
There are three people instead of one.
One who is the dark one,
Wanting to see your pain,
Wanting your world to just crumble,
Needing to see your sadness and pain,
Needing retribution for what you inflicted on me.
One who is the friendly one,
Wanting to see all your happiness in what ever you do,
Wanting to help you in all your journies into greatness,
Needing to be by your side as your support stick,
Needing to allow you to be free to do all you want.
One who is the love of your life,
Wanting to see you with me in the present,
Wanting to see the future with you as my love,
Needing to feel the love you have given me in the past,
Needing to feel wanted and needed by you.
All three fighting over the right to speak to you,
All having equal rights in the feelings towards you,
What is there destiny?
You have left me time and time again,
Always coming back with a new and better life,
Wanting to share your happiness,
And knowing what I feel.
Am I being used as a step stone,
Your knowledge of my blindness to your faults,
Every time we talk I want to stop,
Every time we speak I want to let go,
All these games for what,
My emotions are in a knot.
Why can't I let it go,
Six year past tense,
The roller coaster of feelings,
Why can't I just leave you alone?
I have to be honest,
I hate you, don't want you, need you, love you.
So tonight and in the future,
The three sides of me will argue about what I need to do,
Damn I'm a fool.
D~Romeo
My Blessing or My Curse
Again?!?
Are you a blessing or a curse?
My true achilles heel.
My ultimate strength yet my strongest weakness.
You are the stone on my tracks.
Yet you are the engine in my locomotive.
Am I strong or weak?
Strong enough to care for you even when you hated me,
Yet weak enough to care for you when I should have hated you,
Left with no trace,
Leaving me thinking you were either dead or lieing,
Both as painful as the other,
And now I see you are better,
I want to yell at you, sream, lets you feel the pain I have felt,
Yet I show you courteousness, friendship, and love.
Many tears shed,
Many prayers never heard,
No wishes ever granted,
Here I am staring at you,
Asking you what do I do,
Tell me what you want and it's yours,
Just don't lie,
Don't hide,
Give me my 100%.
Or else say you can't,
Say you will hurt me,
Say its bound to happen again.
I've never hurt you,
Yet the pain you have given me would kill people.
Yet still I see you through to the end,
Because when I was at the end you held my hand,
You gave me the love I needed,
You gave me a strength ever lasting,
I am so afraid of you,
Yet now I now I will be strong enough to stand up to you,
To fight the side of you that hurts me,
To never let that side of you to touch me,
To not even think about me.
Still I do this for you,
But I don't know why?
Do you?
Yet I sit here and cry and get angry and smile and laugh at out memories,
I can only hope,
You know what you're doing with me and you know what you're getting yourself into.
I'm glad your back,
I'm ready for another ride.
D~Romeo
Strong
What if I could step to you the way I should?
What if I could have talked to you before last week?
Wouldn't it be cool if things between us changed?
Thinking about the amazings things we could accomplish,
Me there for you & you there for me.
Creating a family that only god could create,
The envy in everyone's eye,
Spending every day loving,
Showing this world what love and happiness truly is.
The things I want to do to with you,
A plan the world won't see coming,
Never going to be able to be stopped,
Is it possible to love someone without knowing them?
So when will the moves be made?
Have I lost the opportunity to be with you?
All I have left is hope that I one day I will be STRONG
D~Romeo
What Eva
Friends are just pissing you off,
No one tells the truth,
Everyone lies,
No one looks you in the eye,
All I ask of you is your honesty,
All you do is disrespect my trust,
Show me who you are and I will love you for a life time,
Hide and be scared and I will hate being around you,
My partners can't even stand up and be a man,
The one I love can't talk to me or look me in the eye,
Do I ask so much of everyone that all disappoint?
Can for once things go my way?
Can friend's be friend's?
Can the truth be told and not hidden?
When will it end?
D~Romeo
The Way I Want It
I would be able to look at you and say your important,
You're the most important person in my life right now,
You're a dream that I wish I could be apart of.
I would know what to do and how to solve it all,
I'd be Mr. Smooth,
Where everything I touch is turned to gold,
All my dreams will be true and all of yours would be also,
Why can't I just look into your eyes and say it,
I know you know,
I know to you its no big deal things go on,
To you things won't change,
We will still be friends,
Yet to me saying what I want to say is letting you in,
Letting you have that piece of me the last threw away.
I am your friend,
But I want to be more.
You are my friend,
Yet I wish you weren't.
That's the way I want it.
Desmond
1/13/06
Friday the 13th,
Who would of thought.
The day I realize how my feelings for you have changed,
The day where I want you more than what a friend should,
Seeing what I wanted today,
Yet it was someone elses.
Pain and anger and sadness beyond what should be felt.
I am your friend,
But baby I don't want to be just that.
I don't want to play any games,
I want you to know the truth,
But from the past it could change things completely,
I stop & go,
Trying to tell you the truth,
I can't let go & just give you it straight from the heart,
But I don't want to let the dream go,
I want to enjoy our moments.
If only someone could guide me to the right conclusion.
Right now I am at home thinking about you,
You got to understand the reasons why,
I don't want to be alone tonight,
I want to be with you,
I have to let you know that I am not here just for show,
And then hopefully you will let me know,
You love love,
While I love.....,
I'll just let you finish that,
No one smiles the way that you do,
No one stares off into space and makes me wonder,
What is she thinking about,
What does she want with me,
What can I do to help her acheive what she needs to acheive,
How can I show her I'm the one I think she needs,
Dammit you're driving me crazy to the Cour!
You say you don't play games,
You say you have 2 groups,
One I don't want to be,
And the other you didn't name me into,
So maybe the decision was made already and I lost,
I should of told you to cancel that date,
And pencil me in.
Baby I'm sucker for you,
You make me do things I never thought of doing,
You do mean so much to me,
Your opening up my eyes so that I can see again,
Your my favorite girl,
With you is where I want to be,
Just one day please take my hand and see where it takes us,
I just want to be your everything,
Why can't I just tell you this to your face?
D~Romeo
The Cour
Lately my mind has been playing tricks on me,
But I could have sworn what was happening between me and you was real,
I have tried so hard not to fall baby,
But I just can't seem to baby.
How can you not see what I feel.
I'm trying so hard not to get mad,
Yet the level I want to be at we are not reaching.
Why can't I just see the truth baby.
But let's pretend for one night,
That I'm the man in your life,
Let's do all the things that you like,
In that special way that you like.
Now I know I'm not your man right,
But I want to be with you.
What it seems we have is so incredible.
You can take me to that place that I can't reach on my own.
But right now I wanna do some ill shit to you,
I wanna see that pain in your eyes like I have in mines.
Girl I know you haven't done anything wrong,
Yet I want so much more I can't get enough,
My friends think I'm crazy,
I'm trying to do the things that will get me with you,
Yet when you look at me I see that look,
You are asking me to do or say something,
Yet I can't take that charge,
I can't get into your face and look into your brown eyes and say,
"Hey baby I see how your looking at me and I want to talk,
No I'm not talking that talk I'm talking that talk.
I want to see you this weekend just you and I,
I want you to understand you have this man right here wanting you,
I know you may not feel what I feel but this is what I feel about you.
You are to good to be true,
That why I can't take my eyes off of you,
I really do want to hold you that much..."
Yet babe I can't say that I can't find the balls to do so,
So I sit back here and write to you hoping maybe one day,
Just one day you understand I'm talking about you.
Desmond
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